1. I can't wait to come back to Toronto because it's possibly the only place busy and gay enough to remove me from the tragic thoughts and memory of Shanghai. Don't get me wrong, I love Shanghai with all my heart, I just can't think about it all the time and let it take over my life, I am already losing it it's making me all emotionally vulnerable I need to get out

2. I am watching L word these days and my thoughts: I cannot stand those lesbians who only become lesbian becuase they think women won't hurt them like men, they think they are all about commitment not desire. They don't actually love whoever, they love themselves, they love their security, they love their selfishness, and all they want is to be loved and babied without even trying. Because frankly, the truth is, lesbians are either EXTREME feminine or EXTREME masculine, and apparently both team like to assume that the other team is faux les, the truth is... we need to just leave each other alone. If you don't like each other's type, SHUT UP AND leave each other alone. P.S. Shane is awesome, and stop hating on Jenny cuz these 2 r the only characters I find remotely likeable in the whole show. I know I will like Papi when she shows up but... I need to finish the 1st 3 seasons-_-

3. I am writing a new novel in case all of you have been living under a rock. It's coming really really quickly, quicker than both of the other novels. It's really tragic, I am gonna kill myself writing it LOL

4. I am really desperate for the ending of Detective Conan... Or in the shorter term, I am excited for the weekly update of its manga on Shounen Sunday.

5. U of T is a serious bitch... I am kind of worried LOL

6. I am extremely sexually frustrated and dancing is the only thing keeping me from becoming a rapist. There, now that is out we can all be very honest.

7. My childhood best friend in Shenzhen China STILL thinks I am an innocent little child AFTER I was drunk and puking in front of her, yelling and boasting about sexual subjects matters and was practically being an animal. Frankly I can't stand her denial and the way she is always all about herself and she completely ignores everything outside of her solitary self. The whole fucken world knows I am a freak, she is the only one who wouldnt admit it. It's fucken ridiculous, I have been pretending in front of her for so many fucken years, she was half the reason I was in denial, I can't believe I am saying this about her, but she reminds me of a prep school pretentious cold stuck up reputation obsessed fake lying bitch. Well She is finally leaving China for the first time ever, let's see how she is gonna feel after she FINALLY sees the TRUTH! AHHHHHH

8.oh yay this is done...but i dunno, um? wt else? I am really fucken depressed on every possible level these days, and nothing is gonna make me feel better this time. This is why when people ask me, what is your solution to you currently miserable situation, I said, "get famous". They are like, why? I said..."I am already fucked up, so I might as well get famous."